the path

i hate sitting still.  it makes me crazy.  i NEED something to do.
i have always been this way... ask my parents.  if it is not one thing, it's another.  so this idea of resting is hard for me.

i'm called, i feel it.  but wait????  i struggle with that.  so many times in the scripture the Lord tells us to wait.  what is He trying to teach us/me in this waiting time? i know that He has a purpose during this time and i will continue to seek Him for wisdom and discernment.  if i can hear His reply.

lately i've been asking Him to speak to me in my dreams.  He has been and sometimes it scares me.  sometimes i want to take it back and say, "nevermind Lord, just kidding, i really just want to sleep tonight".  but i have come to the conclusion that it is really hard to listen with the business of life.  i know He is there.  i know he is listening.  i KNOW he is talking.  i just can't hear Him.  that is sad, and almost depressing that i cannot be quiet, or stay put long enough to actually hear Him loud and clear.  i'm not saying that i don't hear him during the day, just that i struggle.

so, haiti.  education.  so so broken for the cycle of poverty and feel like the way out has something to do with education.  specifically women's education...

where do we go Lord?  show us the way.  we have this brokenness, and in His Word He tells us that when our eyes are opened we cannot pretend we don't know what to do.  (Proverbs 24:12)

 

we feel like our eyes are opened and we want to act. we hear the call.  show us the path.  we are following your lead, Lord.  

“Once our eyes are opened, we can’t pretend we don’t know what to do. God who weighs our hearts and keeps our souls knows that we know and holds us responsible to act…” Proverbs 24:12